All were coming so rush. Honestly to say that I am not ready to flight. Last Thursday, I just went to apply visa and the next day could be collected. On that day, Joy had told me that I have to fly on the next night after getting visa. These all came too sudden. I had planned to meet my best friends, lemon and key but it was failed in final. I still have many friends want to meet like VCD families, Sony colluagues and Debbie. But that is no choice, I could not make it.
On that day, I sent message out to all my close friends to inform the, exactly that is 1st of April. Most of them thought that was a fool message. Haha! I felt funny as well. I don’t explain more for those who didn’t believe. Of course, I called directly to some of my close friends-Chen Wei & Mun Kuan.
At that night, I felt very touch and appreciated for SS purposely comes to find me have dinner since she is inconvenience to come. Make me so touch. Love you all so much. And, my good+cute+funny roommate also skipped her class to join the dinner, make me felt touch. Actually i felt that i have many things want to share with her although i didn't talk so much to her. That feel like "一切尽在不言中”.
Besides, I also want to say thanks to Lemon for she purposely comes to LCCT and meet me. She is a very very nice and friendly senior and even my good friend.
Furthermore, i feel most touch and almost want cry is my roommate-Pek hern. She purposely skipped class at the last night to join the dinner and drove me to LCCT and gave me her SE handset battery since my battery is gone on that critical time. Without battery, my handset totally could not work and I could not contact the people in Thailand. So she gave me her battery and went back home alone. I blessed her whole the way. My lovely roommate, thank you very much..touch..Love U..Muackz. :* I will take care of your battery as well. Hehe. I had cried after leaving you, T_T.
When the airplane was flying away,i felt i very bu shi de all of you, my best buddies, G18 and my lovely VCD families. I am not enough strong, i was tearing. I don't know where i can meet you all again. I don't know when am i coming back? I don't know will you forget me soonest. I don't want lost contact with you all. I don't want become stranger after i come back. T_T.
I will miss you all always. Please keep update with me. :)
I could feel my friend would like to reject the offer since she kept asking my decision. Is she waiting me to open mouth to reject? I don’t know. But I insist my though that waiting their working permit while hunting jobs. Depend on which offer me in advance. Thus, I feel I am not available to persuade her and ask her keep Positive thinking right now. I don’t want her go because of me. It will make me more burdens when we go over there. Then, I encourage her to re-think properly and convince her that I would respect her any decision although it will make me hurt. After that, I start to escape her. I didn’t find her to talk and didn’t want to listen her because I scare her answer to say “NO”.
After few days, I saw her left “hi” in Msn to me. I just ignored it. But I can sense the bad thing would be happened soon. I have to face the realistic. Yes, she told me her decision ultimately. I felt I could get ready to accept any answer from her. Yet, I get hurt and sad so much. I can’t control my tear falling down. Sorry to my friend, I cannot pretend didn’t happen anything at that moment. Of course, that is not right and wrong. That is her choice, she have her own reasons. But I also have my own emotion. Please let me go. At that moment, I really don’t want to see and listen her anymore.
There are a lot of considerations. However, I have to thanks for BOON. Due to some words from him, I have realized something and given me the courage to take the risk. I always said thanks for his scold and made up my mind. Last and no least, I still insisted to go although there are unstable political issued and my friend FKK.
Besides, I need to apologize to someone. In the whole long way, he never gives up to support me but i keep blaming him could not tell me the reasons and persuade me. Yup, he always takes it easy and thinking positive. He thought these would not happen at all whether what I worried. He only thought that I am thinking too much, worried too much. Without any reasons and solutions for my worried, I definitely could not be convinced. Anyways, i felt touch for him support all the ways.
Although i feel very hurt from my friend but i am also getting precious friendship from other friends. This is a good lesson in my life.
